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Sometimes I don’t choose to change 
Sometimes I become 
Someone else?
And I think
I think

I think when I become someone else
I’m not just wearing their face
I think I’m them
I think every bit of me
Is them
Or what I know of them 
And
And

I
I
I don’t know what happens to me. 
The rest of me 
Um
The me before
Or after

When I’m me
The real me
The actual real me
Not the me that responds to other names
Or the me that doesn’t remember things 

The full me
The me that knows why some people are afraid to look at me 
Or the me that understands knowing looks
The me that knows why my spells look the way they do 
The me that just watches, sometimes
Behind eyes that aren’t mine anymore 
And sees the world differently to me 

When I’m me, I remember
They all want to be remembered 
So badly
And at first
I don’t remember 
But at first, maybe I wanted that too

But what scares me
More than anything
Is that when they remember
When I’m not me anymore
When they remember them
Sometimes
I think they forget about me

And I’m not ready to disappear yet.